my thought on Beethoven

well i decided to play Beethoven's Sonata in D major op.10 no.3 for my next jury. This is to give myself a challenge as well, since I think I've played too much of Mozart and dun really wanna play Haydn( i still remember my ATCL repertoire..). Avoided Beethoven up till now since i come to UCSI cuz of it's wide interval & required power, which is much easier to achieve to those having big hands(i DO play some Beethoven before ah) However i do know this can never be an excuse of not touching Beethoven at all. I wanna challenge myself!!

1st mov: Presto, having interesting directions.dramatic still. will make you wonder bout the contrasting deep minor theme. besides playing the octaves with wrong notes occasionally and tensed my hands unconsciously, the notes are not as difficult as i thought they are.with the repeating themes and pattern, it just makes me feel it's just bit repetitive and even bored if i didnt do any expression and details. It's the technique required that I have to polished and practiced. The mov will just be as exciting like any others if we could bring out the character and the special effect of Beethoven

2nd mov: now this is the one that Im having trouble with. it's just so sad and melancholy. with parts that will only makes you think it's soo sad yet you have to smile cuz it's just...sadly beautiful. Like there's nth you can do with the tragic moment but smile to let it happens in front of you,and pass by, hurtfully..the pain in your heart. The tension, the stress with the dissonances, just wanna let the player to fully release their whole emotion, sadly...! My teacher told me I'm not expressive enough when i thought i was, at least a bit. He wants me to feel, and listen, and play all tiny little details(i know it applies to every pieces). but when I tried to practice after my major class, this mov almost brings me to tears. especially when, im already in such sorrowful state, this mov as if resonating my feeling... Can definitely make ppl falling into emo kind of state... Thus, it's hard to come out from this 2nd mov, to the all so sweet minuet and the lively trio.

Musicians are very emotional. Indeed. I agreed on that. but they, can be very very logical as well. 'cause we all need to think, to digest the pieces.it just cannot be played, too simply without thoughts. (this was shared by my respectful not-official-teacher last night)

4th mov: haven't really learn this one. but it seems to be harder than the 1st one, after few attempts of sight reading.

I still have lots of learn about Beethoven. His pieces are definitely portraying more inner feeling than those composed before him. sweetness and melancholy in just one piece, i wonder how Beethoven's REAL life is....'cause he's really really,trying to express himself, his inner self.....